My Mind

I have a lot on my mind this week. School is screwing me over soo much. I was doing good all year up until the end. I havent even been slacking lately, if anything i've been working harder. Now i'm in sheild which is supposed to be for your work but its actually keeping me from my work. Maybe the problem is that i've been playing alot more shows with my bands every weekend than i ever have. Im starting to play shows during the weeknights too but its the money i need and the exposure. To get where i wanna be in life i need to graduate and play shows alot. I can do both seperately but both at the same time is extremely hard. Especially when your put in classes that i have no interest in. I've always had trouble in school but never this much. The one time my life is going in the right direction outside of school, my life in school is horrible and making the goals i wanna accomplish nearly impossible. It doesnt help that im retarded when it comes to reading books and i am currently in the process of having to read 2 at the same time! While having quizzes nd tests on both every day, its outrageous and extremely hard to work with. High School is such a waste of time for me i just want to go to college already and do the work that really matters in life. Not this stupid bull poop. I'm tired of lessons that i already know and that have no significance to what i wanna do in my life. And to know that if i die all the sudden, all this work was just a huge headache and nothing more or less.